I was a major B.....like totes.✋
I would hide it though. I would have the most NEGATIVE thoughts about other women especially to AMAZING BEAUTIFUL SMART women. Why!? Because I was jealous of what they had and I resented them.
I would pity myself and come up with every excuse as to why I would never be like that because they were fake and probably mean in person and in my mind I justified why I looked down on them.
Then finally something clicked. I realized I was putting them down because I wasn't happy with MYSELF. I thought that if I tore others down then I would somehow come across better?! Ya know what?! I still felt like crap, and I also had people in my life that also like d to gossip about others....ugh it was a terrible cycle that I KNEW I needed to stop.
I can actually recall that time 3 years ago on social media I was following some of those AMAZING BEAUTIFUL WOMEN and NOT liking on photos bc I didn't want to give them MORE love....and in my head they didn't need it- and it was only making their ego big.....ha! Well a little voice in my head said this......'Sarah! You little Bitch!!! Go in and now like on 10 OF THIER PHOTOS!!!! I've been doing that now for a few years and even now in person trying to compliment other women because I NEVER want to go back to that place of negativity, gossip and hate EVERRRR AGAIN!!!
My life is so much more full and I can tell YOU that if I see you in my social media you WILL get a Like from me. I want to build you up because YOU have inspired me to be a better happier person and I thank you for it! TO ALL OF THOSE BEAUTIFUL, AMAZING SMART WOMEN!!! I LOVE YOU!!!