Reflexed
Today I did a reflexology session. And I cried. Hard.
I'm still having visions of Rogers bike accident in my head and last night I woke up from another dream with a similar scenario. I don't think of myself as an empath but from peoples experiences with me they say that I am.
For as long as I can remember I associated crying and LOOKING weak as actually BEING weak. So I ran from it. I felt shame around it. I even tried putting on a front to close people off. I did this often because if I got too close I would get hurt.
... Mix that with being the people pleaser that I was & I can see how this vicious cycle played more into my anxiety than I realized.
I'm learning to let people in. I'm learning to be ok with being vulnerable and I'm learning to let things go.
When the session ended she asked if she could pray for me and I thanked her and said of course. She told me that later today to stand outside and feel the ground on my feet. So I did. I also did 10 minutes meditation from my Virtual Health club app and held Batman. It was the hardest 10 minutes because the whole time I'm "supposed" to focus on breathing but instead the first few minutes I had such a heaviness that I felt I couldn't breath deep enough. I take it I have some work to do. And that’s ok.
It's not an easy path, but when you break down the walls you built thinking it was for protection you start to let more love and support in. So to my fellow "toughies" out there
It's ok to be vulnerable.
Its ok to love hard and feel emotions.
It's ok to focus on self care.
You are love and capable of loving & accepting love.
Are there things in your life that have hardened you? Are you ready to let go and move forward? If you ever need to chat I'm here. Because you aren't alone in this. And you never will be.
Three Little Pigs
3 pigs taught me this one......
I always wanted to FEEL confident....because "looking" confident and "feeling" confident are 2 different things.
Ya see back before I was a Coach I really had it in my mind that confidence came from EXTERNAL and PHYSICAL changes and sometimes sure, becoming stronger physically MIGHT make you feel more confident in your strength but TRUE strength & confidence comes from within. ALWAYS.
I often think of the fairy tale where 3 houses are built, by yes...3 little pigs (you know how it goes).....One with straw, one with wood and the 3rd house brick. The first 2 houses are blown down while the 3rd remains. To me that house is us and standing strong without falling is our confidence.
I can tell you the EXACT moments my house came falling down. My parents divorce, toxic relationships, failed businesses, obsessing over the scale, binge eating & losing the "friends" that really never had my best interest.
But I'm not that same person. I love who I was because without those struggles and pushing past them wouldn't have lead me to where I am today and to the healthy relationships I DO have now.
Too often people have tried to tear me down and I don't like to give attention to it often because I don't want them to think they "got to me." Because in reality.... They didn’t. And they NEVER will.
Detox Done
BLOAT GONE!!! here is Day 3 of my 3 day vegan detox. I think I might do this again next month. Drop a food emoji below if ya want me send ya some info on this program I'm doing! I'm gonna host a nutrition only group in a few weeks #diaryofmydetox
Don't Doubt Yourself
I always trusted this company....but I never trusted myself enough until I said...."DAY ONE" .....instead of "ONE DAY...."
Guys I went YEARZZZZZZ doing the FT time fitness teaching job. TBH, When I became an Online Coach I couldn't add on the fitness part of these programs for the first 3 years of Coaching because I was EXHAUSTED from my cray schedule....So I dove into the nutrition & mindset part of this.
I confronted my binge eating and negative body image (and the scale) & I used REAL superfoods to help HEAL me...and something clicked....
I wasn't afraid to invite my friends to this because it became evident that THIS is what I really wanted to pursue. I proved to myself that if I can do this then I know others can too. And I 100% believe that YES, THIS is the system EVERYONE needs.
Listen babe, you aren't alone. If you too feel outta control then I want ya know something: I'm not offended if you don't join me bc I'm gonna be here...YEARS from now. And yeah, sometimes it takes weeks, months or even years (like it did for me) to trust & love yourself ENOUGH to not only WANT this change, but also realize you NEED this too.
Don't doubt yourself. Dive into personal growth and keep on telling yourself POSITIVE things. You have the power to change A LOT MORE than you give yourself credit for. And I'm just a message away if ya wanna chat
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Roger Update 2
Thank you to ALL who has prayed for Roger. If you have been following since Tuesday you know of the horrible bike accident.
Our friend Gabe saw Roger laying face down in the road and we raced towards him. We had no idea of the severity until we got close to him and saw the amount of blood. He had broken ribs and was unconscious and could barely breath. We weren't sure if he was going to make it. So I thank you ALL for the prayers over the last few days.
This pic and quote below comes from our friend Gabe today....
"They count it as a miracle how good Roger is doing. He was able to talk to the family again today and they said he was very alert. They are moving him out of the ICU and he is no longer in critical condition. The family wrote these things on the ground around where he was laying on the street. Pretty powerful stuff."
Roger Update
This is in response to yesterdays post......Thank you all for the prayers. We just heard an update. His name is Roger and he is still unconscious. He had surgery today. There is swelling and bleeding around his brain, but thankfully no bleeding from the brain. The surgeon said he's optimistic that he will come through. Just please continue prayers for him to gain consciousness and come out of this with as little pain as possible. Thank you friends. I wish for no one to go through something like this and for all of you that are in the medical field I don't think you EVER hear it enough. Thank you for saving lives every-day.
Go Be Kind
When faced with hard choices always remember this.... "Am I being kind?" Then go be kind.
I think most of us ARE kind to others....and maybe SOOO kind that at times we put ourselves on the back burner. We think we will have time later for ourselves and most likely that becomes more of a dream than a reality.
Our life is made up of thousands of choices we chose up until this very moment. And while you can't go back and change the past or how we DID view ourselves I think it's SUPER important to become MORE self aware in the NOW and ask yourself that question...and dive a little deeper...
"Am I being kind....to myself?"
"Am I showing myself compassion and grace for learning something new?"
"Am I allowing myself to grow outside my comfort zone or am I keeping myself safe or unhappy for fear of what others might think of me?"
"Am I living my life the way God intended or am I playing small so that I don't stand out & get hurt."
"Am I being a leader or a follower?"
"Am I standing for something, or am I falling for anything?"
"Am I quick to anger and want others to view what I believe as truth while I dismiss their beliefs?"
"Am I truly happy and loving or am I choosing to stay still & quiet in my pain?"
"Am I being kind by showing love or am I putting others needs before my own because saying "NO" is too hard?"
"Am I scheduling time for myself daily to work on MY goals and dreams or am I not?"
Every day we have choices. While some of those questions might sting a little I want to ask WHY?! Because I know for me when I am offended it causes me to look inward and realize that maybe I have some work to do....bc YUP I definitely do....And that's ok. If we don't continue to learn then we continue to stay stuck.
Now go be kind today. Including being kind to yourself.
Info v. Action
New info is NOT what you need. Action is.
When I hear that statement it reminds me of the YEARS I held myself back.
Ya see, I'm driven but I don't know if YOU know how STUBBORN I am.....or "I WAS."
My stubborn side came from my INNER mean girl.....
One day she would say....
"You can do this on your own, you don't need their help!"
And the next day she would say....
"Why even try, you know you are gonna fail at this too."
Do you struggle with that inner voice too?! Because I SO GET IT. Wanna know what helped me?!
Again... "New info is NOT what you need. Action is."
So What ACTION have you been putting off? Why are you waiting for the "perfect time" knowing deep down "ready" is just a lie?
Take the leap too. If you never do, you will never know what could have been. Trust your gut & forgive the past so you can allow your future the freedom it deserves......& If ya wanna chat, I'm just a message away