Regret. Anger. Heartache. Sadness. Thankfulness

Regret, anger, heartache and sadness and thankfulness. All emotions I'm going through right now. I always want to be honest with you guys and if Eddie can cry on his twitch stream today then heck I can share with you guys too. Eddies got a huge heart and I now know how sad he feels for me because of a recent loss.

My heart aches for my friend for the loss of her man whom she's loved THROUGH IT ALL over the last 12 years. My heart also aches for him and what could have been & I wish I would have shown him more love....

My last encounter with him was not something I'm proud of. Yes, we were friends and hung out but as of recently I had become angry with him & he knew it. Things happened that made me very upset with him. I am filled with sadness and guilt and anger and in my heart I want so bad to go back and make things right. I am a fixer and a problem solver and I want the best for others but I'm afraid he thought I gave up on him and in those moments I think I did.

And I know I can't say I'm sorry and know I can't hang onto this and I know I won't in time but if you can learn anything from me, please reach out to those who need help. I think we all have someone in our life struggling. Please don't give up on them. Always choose to be kind. Life is way too short & you never know when the last time is the last time. 💕

Btw, thank you so so much to the Married to the Games community. I had no idea Eddie shared what he did and your love and kindness is much appreciated. We both love ALL of you so much. Thanks for showing and sharing love. It will never be forgotten.