TRUTH MOMENT

I was a major B.....like totes.✋

I would hide it though. I would have the most NEGATIVE thoughts about other women especially to AMAZING BEAUTIFUL SMART women. Why!? Because I was jealous of what they had and I resented them.

I would pity myself and come up with every excuse as to why I would never be like that because they were fake and probably mean in person and in my mind I justified why I looked down on them. 

Then finally something clicked. I realized I was putting them down because I wasn't happy with MYSELF. I thought that if I tore others down then I would somehow come across better?! Ya know what?! I still felt like crap, and I also had people in my life that also like d to gossip about others....ugh it was a terrible cycle that I KNEW I needed to stop. 

I can actually recall that time 3 years ago on social media I was following some of those AMAZING BEAUTIFUL WOMEN and NOT liking on photos bc I didn't want to give them MORE love....and in my head they didn't need it- and it was only making their ego big.....ha! Well a little voice in my head said this......'Sarah! You little Bitch!!! Go in and now like on 10 OF THIER PHOTOS!!!! I've been doing that now for a few years and even now in person trying to compliment other women because I NEVER want to go back to that place of negativity, gossip and hate EVERRRR AGAIN!!! 

My life is so much more full and I can tell YOU that if I see you in my social media you WILL get a Like from me. I want to build you up because YOU have inspired me to be a better happier person and I thank you for it! TO ALL OF THOSE BEAUTIFUL, AMAZING SMART WOMEN!!! I LOVE YOU!!! 

A little nervous to share this....

Sooooo.... I'm all about others sharing transformation photos but was always too scared to share my own. Why?! Because I need to tell you something. I don't have it all figured out, but I'm stronger mentally and physically now and for that I'm so so grateful.
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When I was 18 I started a very bad eating habit. I would "fast" every other day and then binge eat till I felt sick. I also had this love hate relationship with my scale and I would only be happy with myself if I was under a certain number. I struggled for years from this and in 2010 I decided to throw out my scale. One of the best decisions I ever made. In 2014 I started to dial in my nutrition and feed my body the RIGHT foods. I couldn't have done it in my own but I found a system that works for me.
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I share all this with you to let you know, that NO you don't have to have it all figured out. And if you struggle with the same things then know if I can overcome this battle, so can you! You ARE more important than a number on a scale!!!! If you need love and support just know you are NOT alone.

You Are A Mirror

You are a mirror. Every relationship is a reflection of how you let people treat you and also the love (or hate) you give is also shown back. 

Last night Eddie and I were talking about how and why we get along so well and why I think it's so important that we don't take for granted how amazing the last 9 years have been. I'm not trying to say we have it all figured out but from our experience if we treat each other the way we would like to be treated then most of the time, our relationship is the best! If you fell in love with someone please take a deep look at WHY you love that person and SHOW it! Here's a few things we do everyday for each other, and trust me. It doesn't get old. 

#1 schedule a date night a week. And NEVER miss it.

#2 when you wake up give your loved one a long hug and tell each other you love them. Sounds cheesy but I love it.

#3 guys... Open the car door for your love. Even if you are in a fight. Start NOW. 

#4 listen and talk things out. Share your feelings about ANY issue and respect what that person believes. We are adults and don't need to be right. "Rightness" is wrong. Love is right. 

#5 Do favors without "keeping track" Resentment creeps in. So don't put expectations on others. 

#6 KNOW that we all don't read minds. Don't expect someone to know what they need to do for you in order for YOU to feel loved. For example if for some reason you DO resent the fact that you ALWAYS do something....like the dishes...then speak up and say... Hey! Can you help me do these! ... House work is team work. This also goes to say....if you need quality time or words of encouragement then TELL THEM YOU NEED THIS. I can't stress this one enough. 

#7 Appreciate each other and talk highly of each other to others. We all talk about our burdens rather than our blessings waaayyyy too much. Start a positivity journal to start filling your mind with how awesome and thankful you are for your life and your love. It's there. Do some soul searching and hang on tight to your loved one.

Do you have extra tips to add to this list?! I'd love to hear from you!!! What has worked for your relationship?

Goals and Nail Polish

Reaching a goal is more than the physical. You have to know WHY you are reaching for that goal......

Let me explain

If you know me then you know that my nails are pretty much ALWAYS Painted. But painting my nails was something I NEVER did 4 years ago. I was a nail biter ALL MY LIFE and so ashamed of it! I would hide my nails from friends and it seriously made me feel gross.... Not to mention ingesting hella lotta germs ......Ahhhh, like for reals.... I did it ALL my life and it wasn't until I realized I couldn't have nail painting parties with my neices. I seriously felt bad that I had this gross habit and I was missing out.... At that moment I made a resolution to STOP and somehow it stuck....but seriously I tried and tried in the past but somehow this time it worked! I know that in order to reach a goal you need help! I want to give a special shout out to Kayla Tatman, Daleska Tatman & Aubry Tatman for helping me to realize that "No, I don't want to miss out anymore!" "I want to have awesome nails and chit chat about life while we do it!" so thanks girls! 48 months bite free this month! POP POP!!! Thanks for helping ME reach & maintain this goal!!!!

Outside Your Comfort Zone

I want to share something that's been on my mind lately. I recently made a big decision that I have been waiting on doing for over 5 years. I was so worried about failure and letting others down that I never made steps towards my big 'scary' goals. Now that I am going full force towards my dreams I feel so free. 

I want to let you know that YES you will have HUGE fears before you do something with big changes. But what could that change bring? Would it bring you closer to the life you really want to live? You have to make a jump and you figure it out on the way down. Every failure is a lesson of growth- its life. Start to fall in love with the unknown. You only grow when you step OUTSIDE your comfort zone and Amazing things can happen. 2017 - Brang it! 

"ONLY THOSE WHO RISK GOING TOO FAR CAN POSSIBLY FIND OUT HOW FAR THEY CAN GO." - T.S. ELIOT